piecing the weeds together, pulling and pushing against,
I have never known peace
damp as my eyes flutter to slowing pace
ravaging, bitten scabs infest my skin from my feasting nerves
"30, 30, 30," I follow the beat of my heart
rotting from within, i taste the iron of my own bitterness
unknown time, it passes at lengths I cannot comprehend
are the insects keeping track as they make their claim?
lay with me lover, throw me when you're done, I don't want to be found
raining to the sunshine, follow the breeze to my stench
slumber I dream of, colors mourning shade
creeping sunrise and radiant sunset
stillness at speeds unfathomable, endless.
losing temperature, I've always been one to freeze
burning from within and
turning to the glaciers bursting out of my chest
stillness. roots are thrashing within me.
begging and pleading to be out, earth thanking me for my contributions
fill me, I've never felt this hunger
allow me to thaw for you
buzzards splitting my ears,
crows curiously asking me how I am,
insect kissing to sustain my sadness
coyotes warning me of passing strangers
the flowers begin whispering words of welcome.